This was what i felt after the performance...Like i mentioned in my previous post, i did not get this high when i acted, but since i care not much for dance, my performance was well appreciated...this is called the irony of life. Anyways, it felt wonderful to be on stage after a gap of three long years and i made sure i danced to my heart's content. I, so wish to go back to being on stage and performing, but don't know when that will happen again?
The day started with a dampener. Some of my friends said that they wanted my help to get some flowers for the function and hence the day began @ 3:30...I woke up and waited patiently but they never showed up. At 6 am, i decided to call it off and then went back to sleep. Later, i found out that they decided to not wake me up since it was time consuming and energy sapping...I woke up @ 9:30 again and then spent some time browsing and gulping another cup of coffee. However, i was feeling very dissipated and low..It went on like this for quite sometime and this caused me the worry of whether my energy levels will be low during the actual performance. Time moved very slowly and my mind was on how to raise my sapping energy levels. I tried taking a vitamin tablet and also eating some muffin to get some sugar in the body, but they didn't seem to help. I also had to deal with the fire alarm inspection guy and luckily that went off without any hiccups.
Finally, i went there by 2 pm but i was still tired. I went there and was going through the moments while getting ready with the costume, make up and the adorning of the fake mustache :-) ...We rehearsed couple of times and i found out that i was forgetting some steps. This caused a shock since i was already imagining that i will be a laughing stock and to add to that i had to go to the rest room with that pancha...i didn't understand how people had to answer nature calls with such complicated setup. As i was trying to decipher the pancha and its complexity, i finally found out a way to go to the restroom without having to undo the whole setup. I was way too excited and had to almost stop myself from becoming the next Archimedes who apparently had one of those 'eureka' moments and started running naked across the streets of athens...Luckily, i had my pancha on. This comfort allowed me to gulp as much vitamin water as i could as well as visit the rest room as often as i could. For the next one hour, i was in this caught in this cycle of going to rest room and drinking vitamin water.
Finally the moment of beckoning came...We were queuing near the back of the stage and were anxiously waiting for our turn. Luckily, they advanced our dance show and so the moment of reckoning came. The song that was so familiar to our ears started playing and so we started to move on to the stage in a circular fashion. The circular moment and the cheers from the crowd raised my spirits and my testosterone levels raised which eventually helped me to put in a powerful performance. I didn't realize the time except for one place where i accidentally stepped onto a jewelry piece and slipped. Luckily, i didn't fall down and i recovered very smoothly. None noticed and we got away from the stage with loud cheers from the audience. We went backstage and we started hugging each other and congratulating each other. All that effort and sweat didn't go waste and we did it...As a team, we put in a commendable performance. During the dinner break, lots of people commended our performance and i got a few personal compliments as well about my involvement in the dance as well as my smoothness. I felt happy and it reminded me of the good old times when i got similar compliments when i used to do stand up. I don't remember getting that many compliments as an actor and may be i didn't even get a single compliment, come to think of it. Sad, but true. The thing where i wanted to excel, i sucked and that hurts me to do this day. My ego tells me that i should not give up and try more but let us see where time takes me.
For now, it is about savoring the moment and reemphasizing to myself that i belong to the stage and not to the sidelines or the audience. That is where i belong and that is where i need to be. Will that happen? That is probably another matter which is best left alone to destiny and sooth sayers.
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