shraddha and saburi

For 21 days, while doing sai satcharitra,the message of baba over and over was to do your work and leave the rest to god. Also, there were many places where baba advises the devotees to have faith in him and above all have patience. However, books like satcharitra don't describe in detail, the agony, the quietness, the humanity of bhaktas, instead they go over the success stories...it is not bad, but the expectations of the reader go way up...you feel, GOD is just waiting to hand your bounty the next day after satcharitra parayan...that doesn't happen...like hemadripanth studied gurucharitra for almost 7 years, before he gets to hear about the wonderful story about baba from shama...how stupid of me to expect the world to be at my door step after my single parayan? Also, baba never said, he would change things instantly, instead he always mentioned...faith and patience...then how on earth could i imagine that things would be different? I know, I know..my own belief that my good work needs to be noticed and rewarded...almost instantaneously and spontaneously...this is america, we are talking man...the land of capatalism, the place where dreams are made or thrown out in days...unfortunately, it isn't like that where i work...it is the opposite...life is more of an escalator..all you need to do is to learn to stand straight and it will take u where u have to go...boring, ain't it? yeah, sounds boring...but what else can you do? Move into a faster and more exciting lane...I wish i could do that...

I digress again, but anyways, after the parayan, the path has not been filled with roses, instead it has become more tougher than ever before...what does this mean?It means baba says, he is with you and you need to be more faithful and patient...Everyone will say, we love you baba and we are your followers, but only when the going gets tough, the real faith comes out...I'm sure i'm not that qualified to comment on my love to GOD and to BABA, but may be out of some pure karma, GOD has decided to let me remember these acche wachan...

God, take mercy on us and let me not lose my guide...

Omsairam