Greater and unbelievable are the ways of the lord...isnt it? All our lifes, we have been told that GOD wishes to deal with us in hyperbolics, that our pain and anxiety are going to gradually worsen until that "magic" moment, when we cannot sustain it any longer and then suddenly, lo something happens...a lightening flashes,a thunderbolt strikes and the lotus-eyed, the omnipresent one appears and our problems are solved...We change dramatically and magically and the rest of the life goes on with happiness...FALSE!
Atleast that is not the case for me. For example, the starting of the year has been to practise meditation for 5 minutes and am i still doing it...NO..BUT, god has given me something better, which is the saguna worship of his self...how is that better you say? After all, nirguna worship is intellectually more stimulating, but i feel, the path of devotion is more appealing to me...Not to get into a debate of which is better, but baba has given me the wonderful oppurtunity to read aloud his parayana...And how did that happen? It didn't happen by him showing me his divine form in my dream or by coming in front of me and announcing me to do it...he Rather made it happen in his own simple, humble way...it was a simple coffee conversation that took off...isn't it strange? Does this mean that god likes to do things in a simple way and he doesn't really like grand, big entrances...nope, doesn't seem to be the case with me atleast..may be he prefers the same with my life also, emo...nothing grand, nothing visionary, but simple and humble..a normal, middle ground man...My ego hurts to think of a future like that, but that might precisely be the reason for that happening...crushing my ego and making me see that everyone is great in their life and i'm no different than others in my own and in GOD's eyes...
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