morning time

I woke up early today which was surprising...it is a looong weekend and i'm supposed to sleep like crazy...somehow i got up and it was a bit negative...however, after brushing and a warm cup of cofee, i feel optimistic and filled with love for the entire universe...see, what wonders a nice cup of coffee does? There are times when u have that utopian feeling where the whole universe seems to be your family and you see the almighty in everyone...the world is full of smiling faces, eh? I know, this feeling is bound to get lost and eviscerate as the day goes along, but the very thought that such thoughts can arise gives you hope that life is not all that gory and may be, may be it is bearable...

Sometimes when things are bad, it is not a bad idea to walk away...after all, it does a whole lot of good to you and the other person...why hang around with your heart full of vengeance? Anyways, seems like bygones are bygones and i don't have any regret for what i have done and for what others have done to me...Thinking of which, an interesting thought arose in why things had to happen for the way they have happened to me..At least our belief in weekly baba visit has been growing stronger and at some level we feel that it was destined for us to come here because we could be in his court. I know it is cryptic to understand, but if you know me, you can understand this...may be there is no great material benefit, no professional advantage, but the very thought that i can see baba and feel his presence is like what, a thousand life's tapasya coming to fruition isn't it? Sometimes when my mood is negative and my mind is wavering, i try to think how it was in the 1890's in shirdi...very few people in shirdi and some of those seemingly normal people were seeing baba everyday oblivious to the fact that they were part of this growing phenomenon...i may not be that fortunate, but the very thought that u are able to be there to witness that transformation itself is amazing...I sincerely pray that whatever good deeds have made me come and see baba should help me continue doing that and instead of taking this as a spectacular event, my heart should undergo true transformation and change for the better...when i speak of change, it is not that i suddenly wake up being optimistic, smily and all, but more like, a unwavering faith in almighty, a bit of tolerance for others and the ability to see his hand in everything...This is what i would ask if i get to speak to baba.

Omsairam!