it felt like that when i was there at this shrine where baba descends onto this person...It was interesting to be a part of this, to be able to see a person transform into baba himself and then watch how his interactions were with other people...From the outside, it looks all too creepy and most of us dismiss it as another fake story...but for the believers it is different...am i believer? i dont know...i'm always troubled with questions and hence i'm not going to be an EASY believer even if baba came to me...Luckily, there was no money involved nor was any signup sheet...it was just a group of like minded people who sat there, sang some melodious bhajans and were overall very nice, respectful and friendly...
Coming back, i had very nice experience yesterday...it was almost like i was in shirdi when baba was there...being able to sit at the back of the masjid, watch baba interact with people, see him talking, waving his hands and being nervous at the same time, waiting for the oppurtunity to talk to him, wondering what would it be like to say hello to him, take his blessings and ask him to shower his blessings on you and make all your troubles and nagging thoughts disappear for ever, i mean forever, not like being happy and all for a day to wake up the next and being crappy again...Anyways, that was the happy part...There is also all these questions cropping up on why he didn't pick up yet, am i worthy and all as well as wondering about whether this can be really true...you know, the typical ego trip...
Regardless of what happens, i will continue visiting this shrine to make sure that i think beyond my self and to delve into bigger questions like what is the purpose of life, why are we born, why do we breathe and live a life et al...
Omsairam!
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