divine justice

today i asked for divine justice...this person who was supposed to be my idol and who i aspire to become behaved like the most obnoxious guy on the block...to top that off, the guy i trust helped him to stab me in the back...what is happening? i do make decisions but the way things are happening, i just wish to run out and go somewhere else...i do think their strategy to some extent wants me to do this...but, you expect this to happen to people who don't contribute, not to a rock star on your team, who is supposedly to be in the top 20% of the merit or whatever companies call it. I had a sense of this happening and i tried to prepare, but it is nothing like what happens when you see this...u prepare for a hurricane, but the feeling of being touched is something else...i was almost in rage when i simply said.."god is great!" I do believe that..i believe that god has a reason for this happening to me and for everything that happens to you. However, you expect some sort of divine justice so that the other party doesn't just continue to tread all over you..You expect them to show some decency and not behave in the way they did, which incidentally happens to be of my worst expectations...in a way, i'm vindicated to see that people do behave as i expect, but that makes me feel sad...you don't want to be believing those nightmares all the time and them becoming true..you lose all trust in humanity...I know, i know, not everyone is like that, but you do get to see people behaving like that and then you wish like, why don't they behave in a more courteous and admirable fashion? If you are a leader, you need to be above all of this...Grow some decency and straightforwardness in your dealings..Stand up, be moral and above all be just...Instead, we dont see that...we see people with rotten morals going to the top and advocating that to the rest...they believe, that you can fool people, u can make and break promises at will, you can cheat your way to the top and be selectively nice to those few who are either stronger than them or are meeker and are a doormat..These people will destroy anything and everything that comes in between their way and will do anything to keep their power, money and fame...Unfortunately, GOD is not showing us justice, not quick enough and we believe that this is the right way to the top...thats why i believe divine justice has to be done...i'm not a saint either, for i have sinned, but i believe i was very straight forward in this scenario and had been upfront..even when i had to do something, it was done after a while when i could wait no longer and only then did i found out that, there was nothing there in the first place to begin with..The whole point of this exercise from GOD was to expose people to their faults, but unfortunately, the chosen ones decide to close their eyes...

I did learn some lessons, but i will continue the same way i behaved till now..This will not deter me from being upfront, honest and straightforward. For these qualities make me sleep at night with peace and to maintain purity in my heart and nothing can sway me to comprise. But, i do hope that GOD shows his divine justice and makes sure that this sort of behavior is not done away with.