Seniordom and more

I noticed lately that my mind has started to wander mostly about work, about getting things done and most of my thoughts are about work-related...this is of late making me uncomfortable in my spiritual life as that is my quiet time and thats where i notice this pattern...i console myself saying it is review time and probably my thoughts are going there, but i dont think that is the reason...the real reason is my craving to get to seniordom. i'm basing and timing some of the things of my life based upon this status and hence a little added anxiety...to be honest, i know, that doing something that u cherish shouldn't be based upon something else, as that makes it event-dependant rather than time-dependant and that is too much dependency...Also, probably, i'm attaching too much importance to this whole business of seniority anyways, since, if you are capable and confident enough, you should be able to march to your own tunes....May be that is the key for me, to stop thinking of senior status and start thinking of growing my skill-set...Also, corporate life is going to be there for another 20 years easily, so why worry about the timing of things now? May be get wider exposure, take calculated risks and then in the end, due to some cosmic magic, GOD will set everything right...That brings me to another topic that continues to haunt me:meditation and yoga classed...when am i ever going to get the concentration to shut out the planet and just focus on serenity for atleast one minute? When will this soon to be thirty year old get the focus and discipline that is a must for meditation...well, only time will tell, but right now, i'm atleast starting to ask the right questions (for the nth time)