life unplugged

dont know...whats happening in my life...every day is changing and every day a new thing is popping up...why does this always happen to me? why cannot i just decide on something and just go with it? why does any thing that i want is not given to me easily? isn't it ironic that destiny tries to turn your dreams into reality and then at the last moment when it is close to reality, it plays the spoilsport and washes away everything...what use is then to strive for something, to aspire for higher states, when none of those materialize...is life all about hoping for the next best thing, striving to become that thing and then see that the thing u yearned for has been crumbled into pieces because of destiny? Is this the meaning of life? what good is money or what good is fame if it doesn't let you become what you want to be? what good are those friends and mentors who cannot help you get up after you fall down? what good are those so-called care takers when they run away at the time of peril? and what good is that GOD that tries to ascertain his supremacy simply by making you feel helpless? There is nothing in the world that helps you and there is nothing in the world that destroys you...there is ONLY you...just like you were born in this planet alone crying, so will you leave this mortal frame in the same state...the rest of the time is an illusion, a web designed to entangle you with desires and choke you down...