calm before the storm?

Friday was a bad day...both for the ego and for the spiritual self..my promotion has been delayed for another 6 months and on top of that i was made to not do certain things that i wanted to do. Starry tatrums, eh? But thats what u got with people having drive, passion and ambition. Anyways, i was almost in tears before i came home and then tried several ways to console myself..tried to reason with my mind, tried to reason with my heart and so on, but these things seem to come and go...the worst part was that i seemed to be in no control...a promotion starving employee and at this time of the year is too easy for the management to handle...they know he won't be pulling up any tricks and nor does he have any aces up his sleve...people know basically that he would wait till september until he gets his promo and then jumps of the ship...That part of me to keep quiet and then jump off doesn;t resonate well to me...i cannot do that, possibly cannot and thats what makes it tough for me...

Anyways, i decided to wait for one full week before charting out the future course of action. I also decided to another parayana as well and hopefully, the idea is to get to read sadcharitra atleast 2 chapters a DAY TO ruminate on what it says and may be then my stupid brain can understand the importance of life and not the races we create in our own mind...

As i mentioned, i happened to stumble upon an article in times of india today and it was about how we can use the workplace for our spiritual benefit as well..you know, not just make decisions by leaving out human factor outside, but rather include it as well...so, after reading that, i realized, it is probably ok, if i don't get a promotion and it is ok if i don;t get a hefty pay rise and a fat pay check, but the crucial thing for me is to keep my goal as to raise my work standards and my skill set. Now, i'm flipping this inside out and going to focus on career development and see on what i can learn not on how fast can i learn? Remember, prerajulization and farhanitrate in 3-idiots :-)

Senior or no senior, contentment and self improvement is far more important and thats what i shall focus upon...

Mercy, o almighty, let this new found wisdom stay with me!!!