Search for home

While we are here searching for apartments, there was someone who was smiling quietly and having that mischievous smile that he already planned the whole thing...i mean, we got the house that we both loved, is affordable and is in a great location...no compromises, no heart brakes...Again, GOD does his thing without any ado and without any wimper...i always expect GOD to do his things in the great, bliblical way, announcing his entry with an uproar, doing a lot of miracles, showing his signs etc, but he never does that...instead, he does his thing quietly and before we know it, he already accomplished his deeds..why? all the books we read talk about miracles, wonderful signs, but in my life, they never happen? of course, even if they did, i would still try to weigh in and try to understand it 'scientifically' or attribute it to pure chance or be stupid enough to think it was not really a miracle...you might think i'm exaggerating, but it has happened time and over again...So, for people like me, this is the ideal way of dealing...i do wonder how some people (read my wife) have such staunch beliefs that they envision god's hand in everything...they seem to be content and any minute thing that they see they account it to the almighty...that probably is a good thing like the simple-minded folks in shirdi who never dreamed of great things instead focussed on doing their daily activities, contended with their lifes and look what they got? The almighty at their doorstep....they didn't need to run to himalayas, or do staunch tapasya..nothing...they just did their duty, led contented lives and god appears at their door step...i need to remember this part...this whole contended and satisfied thing...omsairam!

thanks for the home and thanks for being with us...

Life so far

This is my first blog after a while and i want to talk briefly about how things are, how my perspective is etc..

change is always difficult to handle and the magnitude of change in my case has been huge..new technology, new work environment, new place and new people...sometimes, thoughts prod me on whether it was necessary and whether it was in the right direction, i feel a little nervous and wonder whether i'm in the right direction...change makes people nervous and the key to not feel nervous is to accept it and be ready to take mis steps, make wrong calculations and then be able to correct the course of action...so, i try to chant sairam mantra and then tell it that it is ok to be nervous and that time will help us determine the correct course and well if it is not the correct course then we will change it...what the heck...

I also attended a talk called..how to tame your monkey mind...it made me feel happy to realize that it is not just my mind that is a monkey and that everyone on this planet have similar problems that i face...it was interesting to see that you can train your mind and make it bend...i loved the thought of giving pain to my mind and make it squeal begging me for mercy and asking me to forgive it for the numerous troubles it has caused to me...one thing i realized is that, YOUR THOUGHTS make a big difference and unless you can conquer them, you have not attained true realization...in my case, my thoughts do trouble me and meditation/passive observing of thoughts is the SOLUTION...Also, believing in the goodness of the UNIVERSE and my sadguru are the key to not lose hope and optimism....

Omsairam!

divine providence

i was making a mental note to myself recently that i should be following divine will without any questions asked...it sounded simple at that moment...the logic was you just go with the flow and not worry about the next thing that is going to happen...you also believe in the age old adage that if something is happening to you, you deserve it and that the thing that belongs to you will come to you without you hankering for it...it definitely sounded easy on the paper and made me believe that this is the answer to my suffering...i actually wondered why i didn't think of this earlier? two days later, i believe it is not that easy...if it were, people would have been following it everywhere and there would be no unhappiness and stress in the world...that said, trusting divine providence is not impossible...there will be lapses, there will be digressions, but it can still be done...The biggest problem however seems to not about trusting the divine providence, but figuring out whether it is the divine providence or not...recently, i have made career move which at that time had made me believe it is divine providence, but now, i'm not so sure...why? because, the spiritual high that i experienced at that time is not being experienced right now and the demons of doubt have come back to torment me again...what can i do then? i believe it is better to go with the assumption that whatever has actually happened to you is divine providence...NO QUESTIONS ASKED...God doesn't make you do things that is not according to his will...probably, this will make you not ponder over the other choices and you can make peace with yourself...

In short, divine providence is probably summarized like (need to add more as we go along):

a) Believing that whatever has happened to you is god's will.

b) Believing that whatever has not happened to you is god's will.

c) avoid resisting things...if you dont like something, make an attempt to change it...if it still doesn't change, then you need to follow it.

Hopefully, writing this should help me to refer to this in case i get lost...